Just Sit September 11, 2008
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I waved off the server, no dessert tonight.
Deciding it was better to move outside, light a cigarette, and sit.
Just sit.
That’s not allowed anymore, really,
even in the throes of a slacker nation,
mere sitting is equal to laziness or inactivity, and
God forbid, taking a handful of moments and deciding to sit,
it’s just so careless.
And so it is in the era of cutting back and conservation
in the face of so many who urge me on to a new age liberality.
My cigarette and I are not conflicted
as we mindlessly burn, glowing hot but softly.
I can speculate on the nature of this,
I know the pundits and bloggers will even if I don’t,
there’s too many voids to fill, too many noises to make,
too much to be made of the mundane to let anything pass.
It could make me a star, if the time is right,
if I’m seen at the right moment by the right people
as they scan, cinematic eyes, glassy and gleaming.
I’m not tired or in the midst of some intense emotional storm,
I decided just to sit.
Something that will likely be criminal in that not-too-distant
Terminator-Blade Runner-Escape From New York future
we’ve been told for decades to prepare for.
Sometimes there is no preparation.
No amount of practice can prepare us for certain things.
So, take a moment, or a handful of moments,
and just sit.
Reflecting on September 11, 2001 September 10, 2008
Posted by vsap in Blogroll, US Politics, Uncategorized.Tags: September 11, Twin Towers, World Trade Center
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I was eleven days out of work in suburban Chicago on September 11, 2001. My daughter’s first week away at college as a freshman. My son off to grade school and my wife off to work. I was shuffling through resumes while I waited for my dial-up AOL service to give me the news of the day. Michael Jordan coming out of retirement again? Winners never know WHEN to quit, I thought to myself.
Spreading papers on the floor to try to get my focus on my job search I was distracted for a few minutes. I refreshed the news page out of habit, I guess, and there was a photo of some kind of explosion at the World Trade Center in New York.
As I was looking at the page, the phone rang. My wife asking urgently, “Are you watching this?” I wasn’t so I went over to the bedroom and turned on the TV. What could I think? I told her to sit tight and I would call her back when I could sort it out. As if it was in my power as a husband to fix this. Not five minutes passed when the phone rang again. My daughter. Nearly panicked, she asked more urgently than my wife, “What’s going on daddy? Are we all going to die?” As calmly as I could I explained the small town where she was sitting wasn’t a likely target for terror, if that was what this was. It still wasn’t clear to me. I told her just to sit tight and pray. I would call her back shortly. It took less than an hour for it to begin to sink in. By 11 am it was abundantly clear.
As we sit here seven years later, we all know what happened. Well, all of us but the handful who still believe George Bush or “the government” did it. It was a moment when our nation was presented the face and grip of evil like never before. It was obvious. Today, it doesn’t seem as obvious anymore to many who’d rather believe in the basic goodness of humanity instead of its basic depravity. How could it take such a short time to stray back to the former path that led to this disaster?
One reason could be that not enough of us have visited that field in Pennsylvania, the Pentagon or the Twin Towers site, with the goal of re-visiting those essential feelings. I did that with my son in April 2007 on a visit to New York City. It was an uncharacteristically cool and rainy period in the city but it didn’t stop us from doing all the tourist stuff we set out to do. We arrived about mid-morning in a light rain. Emerging from the subway and walking over to the site, I felt the bitterness of sadness underpinned with an unspeakable anger. As we arrived at the side with all the memorials of people who died, I cried, more deeply and mournfully than I thought possible. My son put his hand on my shoulder and I remember clenching my teeth and saying, “Kill them all. Damn them. Kill them all.” After I calmed down I didn’t apologize to anyone for what I said. I meant it. The rain wouldn’t cleanse this wound. Divine retribution would be the only solution. As God had planned it, that power was not mine so the feeling passed harmlessly enough, or so it seemed.
Seven years later I harbor the same feeling. I don’t breakdown and cry as often as I might if I saw the places frequently, but I still don’t seek forgiveness or absolution for this thing. I consider it righteous indignation. I have discovered that there are times when healing doesn’t come. I have discovered that there are times when there is no closure, no peace. I have come to believe that it is put there to steel my resolve, strengthen my heart for the loose ends this fallen world leaves us with from time to time. So, I won’t forget September 11, 2001, even if I was a thousand miles away and didn’t lose anyone directly associated with me. That’s a loose end that won’t be tied.
Did I find a job? Yes, in November 2001 in Virginia, about 50 miles from DC. It was just in time to endure the DC Sniper, but that’s a story for another time.
God is back in the mix! September 10, 2008
Posted by vsap in 2008 Presidential Election, Blogroll, US Politics, Uncategorized.Tags: Ann Coulter, faith, God, Peggy Noonan, Sarah Palin, Soul of America
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“When liberals start acting like they’re opposed to pre-marital sex and mothers having careers, you know McCain’s vice presidential choice has knocked them back on their heels.” – Ann Coulter
I’m not here to adore Ann Coulter. Today I want to give space to Peggy Noonan. Whose open mic situation on MSNBC notwithstanding, has shown to be a reasonable columnist for the Wall Street Journal and author of some renown. As an observer she recently stated:
“Let me say of myself and almost everyone I know in the press, all the chattering classes and political strategists and inside dopesters of the Amtrak Acela Line: We live in a bubble and have around us bubble people. We are Bubbleheads… And when you forget you’re a Bubblehead you get in trouble, you misjudge things. For one thing, you assume evangelical Christians will be appalled and left agitated by the circumstances of Mrs. Palin’s daughter. But modern American evangelicals are among the last people who’d judge her harshly. It is the left that is about to go crazy with Puritan judgments; it is the right that is about to show what mellow looks like. Religious conservatives know something’s wrong with us, that man’s a mess. They are not left dazed by the latest applications of this fact. ‘This just in—there’s a lot of sinning going on out there’ is not a headline they’d understand to be news. So the media’s going to wait for the Christian right to rise up and condemn Mrs. Palin, and they’re not going to do it because it’s not their way, and in any case her problems are their problems. Christians lived through the second half of the 20th century, and the first years of the 21st. They weren’t immune from the culture, they just eventually broke from it, or came to hold themselves in some ways apart from it. I think the media will explain the lack of condemnation as ‘Republican loyalty’ and ‘talking points.’ But that’s not what it will be. Another Bubblehead blind spot. I’m bumping into a lot of critics who do not buy the legitimacy of small town mayorship… and executive as opposed to legislative experience. But executives, even of small towns, run something. There are 262 cities in this country with a population of 100,000 or more. But there are close to a hundred thousand small towns with ten thousand people or less. ‘You do the math,’ the conservative pollster Kellyanne Conway told me. ‘We are a nation of Wasillas, not Chicagos’.”- Peggy Noonan
Coulter may have said in two sentences what Noonan arrived at, but the latter did a necessary exercise in the delineation of the two forces at work in this election: the secular-driven community and the faith-based community. God is at the center of one and “this world” (all you can see, feel and touch) is the center of the other. I am a Christian and I do see the world as black and white, good and evil. Liberals like to harp on the “holier-than-thou” attitude of some of us and the “narrow gate” theology we believe in. It’s understandable, if you’ve intellectually accepted that there is no God, that you believe there is no place for this type of spiritual fabrication in the public discourse. So, you begin to dismantle any reference to God, and, over the course of the 20th Century, you are famously successful in doing so. What this has lead to is the slow, painful cancer-like process of literally burning the soul out of the nation. It is disingenuous to wonder why people don’t seem to care “anymore” when, if you simply gaze into the mirror, you are the perfect reflection of the failed liberal path we have chosen.
Noonan is correct to observe that we have decided to stand apart. However, this decision was made farther back than she might care to admit. It is an odd thing that God will sometimes allow us humans to dive deep into our excesses before pulling us out. In the Old Testament, Israel and Judah earned much of God’s wrath. And, while we’re a New Testament people, saved and forgiven, it doesn’t mean we are free from the responsibility of our excesses. Ultimately, then, we will be punished not because we aren’t saved, but because we were neither hot nor cold in the century past and the liberals were able to allow evil to achieve a foothold it could never have earned on its own. All as we watched.
Sarah Palin, with all her flaws, appears to be an offer of redemption of sorts. “If we can elect this godly woman to top office, maybe all isn’t lost for us!” At least, some of us think that. Coming from a humble place, the Savior could see life like the Pharisees, Rabbis, and Romans could not. They didn’t take kindly to His way. How could a boy born of a lowly carpenter speak with such authority? But so it has been through the ages, those not of “the manor born” can’t possibly be fit to lead. Mayor of Wasilla, Alaska, lead? Impossible. Improbable. And, as far as I’m concerned, it’s fine that the liberals or secular humanists disbelieve in the audacity of hope that has unfolded in front of them in the form of Sarah Palin.
It’s true. For the moment we’ve set aside our differences with John McCain. Even better, we’ve pretty much set aside B. Hussein Obama and Joe Biden. But there will be other battles for other days in this war for the soul of America. If Palin has put the topic (soul of America) back on the table, and it has to be reckoned with at least within each of us if not publicly, then God will be delighted with the angst it brings.
Newsweek: weak as water, listing left September 8, 2008
Posted by vsap in Blogroll, Uncategorized.Tags: Joe Biden, Sarah Palin, sexism
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Newsweek’s Andrew Romano in “The Perfect Palin Response?” gives a segway to Dems on handling the problem of Palin…
“Today in Green Bay, Biden effectively dismantled this notion. Noting that “it’s 2008″ and not some sort of “time warp,” the Democratic No. 2 reminded his audience that “there are an awful lot of very, very accomplished women holding office that I debate, and we beat up each other every day in the United States Senate.” He continued: “Try debating Barbara Mikulski. Try debating Barbara Boxer. Try debating Olympia Snowe. So the idea that there’s a woman and somehow we go, ‘Oh, my God, I don’t know how to deal with this’ … the only guys who think that way have never been around strong women.” He’ll assume, he said, that Palin is “as smart as I am, as thorough as I am, and knows as much as I do”–and that’s that. “She’s going to have to answer questions,” he added. By tackling the specter of sexism head on, Biden has cleverly reframed the debate. It’s not “sexist” to hit Palin hard, he’s saying.”
Of course, the problem for Newsweek is the problem of MSNBC: blatant cheerleading for the Dems. For the latter, it cost Chris Matthews and Keith “Overthetop” those coveted anchor chairs for the balance of the campaign. NBC discovered, too late to save itself, that these two goofs had no business occupying seats of authority, anywhere under any circumstance. For Romano, he’s the only one who seems to think that Biden “cleverly reframed the debate” on sexism. You see, there was none from the outset. It simply shows when you have nothing, you fabricate, and then you find a quote to support your supposition. If this is journalism, or even critical analysis, then it’s just a half-notch above blogger status. The only difference being that Romano gets his check from a formerly reliable news magazine and a blogger does not.
Jim Acosta from CNN reports another angle from Joe Biden’s Green Bay ramblings…
“Sarah Palin has made a couple really good political speeches. She makes a very strong and confident impression. But Sarah Palin eventually is going to have to do what I do,” Biden said Monday during a campaign rally in Green Bay, Wisconsin. “She’s going to have to answer questions. She’s going to have to say where she wants to take America and she’s going to have to say what her record was and defend her record,” he said.
Bully for you, Joe! That’ll get her shakin’ in her fur-lined boots! If Biden has bothered to watch the gubernatorial debate between Palin and Democrat Tony Knowles, then he already knows she will have answers. What he doesn’t know how to do is run a city or a state. Long-winded intellectual diatribes on foreign and domestic policy do not win voters over…ask John Kerry. The northeasterners penchant for superiority does not impress midwesterners or westerners very much. Barack Obama may be a senator from Illinois but he’s as Illinois as Hillary Clinton is Arkansas. Harvard, Yale, Princeton, et al, haughtiness can have a very negative impact on us great unwashed outside the original 13 colonies, clutching to our guns and religion as bitterly as we do.
Acosta finishes with…
“It’s an old political adage that people don’t vote for the bottom of the ticket, but Biden versus Palin at this year’s vice-presidential debate may be one of the hottest political events of the year.”
He’s right. And if Joe is as good as he thinks he is and he destroys Palin in debate, we might need to re-group and assess the failure. But if she holds her own, which I suspect she will, with or without all the “answers” (as liberals define them), then Barack and Joe will lose much ground. The kid from Scranton will have been bloodied by the hockey mom from Wasilla. That would be joy!